Hey people. For those who missed, I've finally posted a link to my pilot podcast "Bric-A-Brac". Unfortunately I have not been able to do any more recordings since due to work. Which is also why I have not been doing new shoots. But I do plan to do more podcast work in the future when I get more time.
If you have issues with the link look up Blue Sicx on iTunes or Soundcloud.
This month (apart from being the month of love and spending) is LGBT history month. Now events like this can become very polarising. Not just in regards to the LGBT+ community, but other rights groups like black rights and the feminist movement. The reason these events cause division I believe are two fold. One some people just don't agree with what the groups stand for. Obviously this refers more to the LGBT+ groups. And two, some people believe that the issues resolved and that the groups don't need to keep on about it.
Personally I like the idea of (ADD NAME HERE) history month. In my day to day I don't tend to think about particular topics unless it pops up on Twitter or Facebook. In fact, I only learnt that it was LGBT+ history month because of twitter. So these history months I find fascinating as it gets me to think about social history. How far we have come and how much farther we can still go.
Now I focus more on the LGBT+ community side of things as a few years ago I found out that I'm a part of it. I don't follow race issues as much, as I thankfully don't come across racism as I used to in my youth. Though race issues do come up from time to time that just baffles me.
Things that seem to come up with movements, rights, parades etc. I do come across people (online and R/L) who say "Well we don't have straight pride parade" "Why don't we get white history month?" "If women get woman's day, when do we get Men's day?"
Now obviously I'm not saying that every single straight white man says this. Thankfully it is very few.
My thoughts? Well, These events have come from an angle of subservience, ridicule and dehumanisation. And if last year has taught us anything, it's still here.
Another thing I find interesting is that some of these people thing that feel that more rights to others means less rights for them, which I don't really see. You can still go about your day to day.
The last point I'll being up this that I still feel that our modern rights groups are still necessary. However there are still issues within the groups. The Malcom X's of the groups. The people want to be "more equal then others" which opposes the foundations on which the movement was build.
I was a YouTube video that was published after the US legalised guy marriage. This YouTube channel was about tips and tutorials on how to grow and maintain dreadlocks. So this man put out a video about gay rights verses black rights. I did not watch the video though. All I could think was why did you put this video out? Who is this helping? To me, black rights and gay rights are to different. They fought for different things. It feel like a one sided argument for a two person discussion. And worst of all, making more division.
I'm an optimist. Which isn't easy. But I still hope that one day all of this nonsense will stop and we'll all just be happy.
I first played this game last year. I saw the trailer for it on the YouTube channel LauraKbuzz. Being an avid fan of her work, I went straight to download it. It was on itch.io. An Indi game store front.
Acceptance is a game about trans people desynced for non-trans people in mind. To spread awareness and understanding about trans people and the issues they can go though.
I played it and loved it. A short while later I put a small review of it on itch.io, then tweeted it.
Then went on talking about it for days after. To friends, family and anyone who were too polite to tell me to shut up.
The review is small but at the time it felt right.
So last week it decided to replay it. As my interest and understanding of LGBTQ+ community has increased, it felt right to play it. I made different choses in this play though than I did in my last run. It still felt good to play. It still had the same impact for me.
So, after replaying it, I thought I would re-review it. The review is very short, but then so is the game. You could finish it in ten minutes. But it is worth the time.
Written by @laurakbuzz and @8bitgoggles.
Art Work by 8bitgoggles
Music by @joannablackhart
Coded by @lexicobob
It starts off with a trigger warning. The game contains sexual assault and suicide. The game asks if you’re a man or a woman, then the game tells you that you’re wrong.
You live a day in the life of a transman or transwoman. The game gives you very interesting prompts to continue the story. You can complete it very quickly. But it’s about informing rather than entertaining.
It makes you aware that some people don’t think themselves as they appear. In the opening seen it explains the disconnect that some trans people may feel when they look in the mirror. That you are not the “You” you see. It also shows you the work you’d have to go through before you can even leave the house. It’s not as simple as putting on make-up or after shave.
I don’t want to go on too much and give way the story (or at least the male story path). But I can imagine that the story hits the same beats.
So why am I banging on about this game? Why talk about I game I’ve played twice in a year and a half? I think more people should be made aware of it. If you’re trans or not, give it a go.
Being a black man, I have been though prejudices. I found it a fascinating to see the parallels. Walking a day in someone else’s shoes, but this someone is still you.
It's funny how life's path can be like crazy paving. Even when you have an idea of the direction you're still unsure of each step. I'm a person who doesn't have a plan in life. I have targets but no overall goal. Other than just being happy.
I have learned more about myself in the last year than I have in ten. I would not have guessed that I'd be where I am emotionally and politically.
Six years ago I said to myself that I was going to be a model. To have fun with it and to be creative. I now look at my twitter profile and see fewer models and photographers and an abundance of LGBTQ supporters and "SJW's". I'm reading more about trans issues and gay rights.
Having grown up in an old fashioned family it's not been easy. I love my parents to bits and I wouldn't change them. But as they are of an older generation they aren't as open to the LGBTQ community. Now don't get me wrong, they are not homophobic or transphobic. They don't hate they just don't "agree".
As I'm coming out to my friends as a cross dresser most (typically) saw it coming. And the rest aren't bothered.
Me; "I'm a cross dresser."
Me; "Yeah. I came round yours once in a black skirt and nail varnish."
Friend; "Oh right. I just thought that was just you being you."
But I'm lucky to have friends who are supportive.
I feel that I have grown as a person. I feel like I have a purpose. I don't feel restrained. Like a great weight has been lifted. And more importantly I feel happy.
I'm a black pansexual cross dresser and I'm happy to be here.
Being a comic geek I asked myself the question, "What super power would I have?" To which I answered "Super speed". I'm a big fan of The Flash comics. Then later on I asked myself what "ability" would I want in real life that I don't have now? So I thought, "You know what I'd really love? The ability to read on the level of my age and intelligence."
Now I've never been tested for dyslexia, but it's a belief held by my peers and colleagues over the years that I'm on that spectrum. I'm also lucky to have great friends who understand and support.
I was also lucky in senior/high school. They had an IT programme which helped kids with reading, spelling and/or maths. Which I went to once a day during class. But I felt a bit of a burden when I had to have friends read textbooks to me. God bless you Emma. You had the patience of a saint. That being said it doesn't help your self esteem needing things being read to you.
But the best thing modern day has brought are audiobooks. I've enjoyed so many great books that I would not have loved in any other way.
I'm 29 now. I know and wish my reading could be better. Comics and mangas. It takes me time to go though paperwork and read though Facebook and Twitter posts. But the important thing is that I'm not afraid to keep trying and importantly not afraid to ask for help.
I hope this helps someone.