Standing in the cubical. I've got three more stops before I get off the train. I'm looking at myself in the mirror. I still look like me, but not quite. Having to sort out long hair is alien. I'm two stops away from my station. My hands are shacking. I'm terrified. Will people in the carriage notice I changed? What will happen if someone does notice? Can I do this?
"Yes you can! You will go out there sit down and just go back to your iPod. Now go out there and fucking own it!"
I tentatively unlock the door. "Just go out there". I take a deep breath and open the door. I step out and get my bag wedged the doorway. Not the best start. I dislodge my bag and go back to my seat. One more stop. The train seems to slow down as I wait for my stop. I feel sick. I slowly get up and walk to the doors. My heart is in my throat. I look around. No-one's looking. No-one seams to even care. I set off the train with a sense of accomplishment.
London Pride here I come.
I had a very enjoyably trip to London Pride.
I wrote this small segment to express how I felt on the train to show that it's not always easy but worth it in the end. And I hope it helps people. to show that others go though the some things.
Now to clarify I am not transgender. I am a cis man who likes to crossdressing when he can.
If you have an interest in transgender topics I'd recommend you check out @LauraKBuzz @MagsVisaggs @TransWomenFacts @JoannaBlackhart @OhMiaGod @8BitGoggles on twitter just to name a few.
"Yes you can! You will go out there sit down and just go back to your iPod. Now go out there and fucking own it!"
I tentatively unlock the door. "Just go out there". I take a deep breath and open the door. I step out and get my bag wedged the doorway. Not the best start. I dislodge my bag and go back to my seat. One more stop. The train seems to slow down as I wait for my stop. I feel sick. I slowly get up and walk to the doors. My heart is in my throat. I look around. No-one's looking. No-one seams to even care. I set off the train with a sense of accomplishment.
London Pride here I come.
I had a very enjoyably trip to London Pride.
I wrote this small segment to express how I felt on the train to show that it's not always easy but worth it in the end. And I hope it helps people. to show that others go though the some things.
Now to clarify I am not transgender. I am a cis man who likes to crossdressing when he can.
If you have an interest in transgender topics I'd recommend you check out @LauraKBuzz @MagsVisaggs @TransWomenFacts @JoannaBlackhart @OhMiaGod @8BitGoggles on twitter just to name a few.